Yes, like I've stated in my title post. Yes. Sayanghaeyo is closing. And this would be the last post of Sayanghaeyo.
Its hard to say it out; but like what I've been concerned of quite some times ago; finally its getting to me.
I'm quitting fangirling.
For all these time, I thought I was one strong girl with loyalty more than a bunch to our beloved Super Junior and KPOP fandom mostly. So I went all out, strutting and giving out what I got, trying to make it all possible.
But it hit me one time, that I am not going anywhere with this.
I'm an university student with average scoring; fangirling had taken almost 85% of my life and it leaves me merely 5% to study diligently and score my best. Its really upsetting; I've been depressing about it for several times already but I keep on motivating myself; saying that I could do this.
But it hurts too much. All I want to do is to do well at school and when I get myself involved into fangirling; its all the time that I had for it. Talking about bad time management. And the only solution for such a failure like me; I need to remove one LESS IMPORTANT from my life to achieve the best of the best at the other part.
So I gave up fangirling.
This was long decided early this year actually. But since SS2 is coming to town, all stuffs that I need to take responsible with, I just take in and bear with it. I thought of announcing my resignation right after SS2 (thats the reason I'm reluctant to post fan account) but theres some problems I'm experiencing for weeks after SS2, so I need to take hold of the announcement.
Now the final problem is all done, here I am declaring to you.
I know, it might sounds too drastic. I barely am E.L.F. for 2 years and I'm quitting already. Its so irony on how I kept saying I'll be forever E.L.F.
But I got ambitions to catch up with. I got family to make them believe in me with. I am just a normal human being. I am not a super girl.
Thank you so much anyway, for the joy that we share together, spazzing about the boys and girls together, being silly, dreamy and dorky. Its really nice to know you guys, dudes and babes all these while, I'll keep in touch with you all, don't forget to add me at MSN if you still wants to be my friend :') I will always keep blue as really meaningful color to me and I would always cherish the moment that we had together, no matter how little or huge it is. I will treasure it forever.
Thank you so much Super Junior for the love and joy you gave me, thank you so much to all the sayangzz that I know, that I don't know, that I'm yet to know. Thank you so much for supporting and following this crappy blog of Sayanghaeyo till the end of it. Thank you, thank you so much.
At the end of this post when you're reading this;
I am no longer
Everlasting Friend (E.L.F.)
and within 24 hours of posting this
would forever vanish from this earth
Thank you so very much, I love you guys, I sayang semua-semua