Tuesday, June 24, 2008
Ahhh~~ right. Another post for me to confess. While I’m writing this, I’m in a dark room, looking ugly since I haven’t wash my face from out of bed till afternoon, reading fanfics, watching youtube and voting super junior again, again, and again. I don’t talk to any human beings in this house, I don’t know how to start to because what will blurt out of my mouth would be anything that I’m interested in. That would be so selfish of me. So I better off retreating myself from any conversations and live in this small cave doing things I like. This is very unhealthy~
I rejected every social gatherings like the reunion camping, varsity meetings, shopping spree and campus orient-week officer offer. I don’t answer text messages since I don’t feel like talking into anything. I even reject the idea of me assisting my dad on his motivational talk. Dare I have to say I am lazy. And I can live this boring, lifeless living forever. I did.
Yeah. But I’m too ambitious for that. I don’t know what is happening in my mind right now. I just wanted to do things that I really like this holiday. As if I’m going to have a nerve-breaking, tiring semester this upcoming back to school session so I had my lazy bone in, and I’m enjoying it.
Just what happen to the twisted-elegant, cheerful, light-hearted girl here? This is holiday disorder. I spent it to the max. This is the moment when I can be lazy all day and all night. Locking myself in the room and do anything I like with my laptop. I even laugh to myself when I looked into the mirror. Just thank God I don’t gain any weight. Since I seldom walk out, I ate less and dance just too much on my own. I even wish I had this huge mirror to see if I’m dancing it fine. LOL.
Watching pretty boys are huge sin when you’re not as pretty yourself though. I felt it’s not worth it so sometimes I found myself dolling up in front of the laptop, watching (sometimes dancing) to those cool videos. Okay, it may sounds odd. But I’m only doing this when people are not around.
JUST WHAT HAPPEN TO GOD THAT I LOVED SO MUCH???? When was the last time I pray??? Ugh, this truth hurts. I should off being squeaky clean, dolling up, go somewhere and pray.
The reason that I had the guts to confess, is meeting this, umm….dongsaeng. Too pure, too innocent, I wish I could take him and put him in my handbag. How can I forget that Saturday with such a shy smile? Meeting him moved myself to…well, refresh myself? Repackage? Hahahaha~ things like that. I just have to. Since he is looking at me like I’m a respectable noona. I should be one. Haha! That is sooo cheesy!!
Well then, end of confession. I should step out and do anything necessary. Like…eating or shower? Maybe pray~ hahahaha~
With lots of love from a really ugly side of me
~Heaven~ (not really right now :P)
Sunday, June 22, 2008
But it’s okay. We bumped at the right time.
I said you’re late. You nod and laughed.
We sit. You ordered a shake. So do I.
You said I’m different from what you thought.
I said you’re exactly what I thought.
I said I like your hair.
You blush and look away.
With that attitude, reminds me of a school girl.
You said you wanted to be an author.
That is why we’re here.
We should discuss. About a book. A political one.
You said with an awkward voice. You want to talk about other things.
It was religion. I’m okay.
We talked about the issue.
Suddenly, we’re dumbfounded.
Shakes empty. We walked out.
People were looking at us weird.
I’m uneasy. But your shy smile washed it all away.
I hardly see the sun outside. But it’s really lovely.
I found scenery I like.
I pull out my cell and you hid behind your palms. You thought I’m capturing you.
When I explained, you flushed. So I took your picture.
There. No need to be embarrassed.
I’m laughing hard. And you looked away. I know you’re shy.
To keep me silence, you gave me a key chain.
When I’m busy admiring it. You gave me a piece of paper.
I asked if the digits were yours. You said yes.
I asked are we going to meet again. You just nod.
I told you this day is my happiest day. You smiled.
….is the most wonderful two words I’ve ever heard.
Saturday, June 21, 2008
It's 21 of June and it's Ryeowook of Super Junior's Birthday!!
The eternal magnae of the team is 21 this year. Currently he is staying in China (i guess, since he is working in Super Junior-M nowadays). I wish the tenor-voiced oppa will do well thus forward in the future~~
The first time I knew Super Junior, my eyes locked on his face in Don't Don's MV. At that time, I didn't know he is Ryeowook, the shy, cute oppa (^^). So, yeah. Happy Birthday again, Ryeowook Oppa!!! Saranghaeyo!!
<---- the looks that caught my eyes LOL
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
So that's all for now. I'll see ya around~
P/s: I can't wait for SuJu to come to Malaysia!!!! WELCOME!!!
Super Junior Happy latest song: Cooking? Cooking!
consisted of all Super Junior T members with additional of Yesung and without HeeChul
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
- Kamenashi Kazuya, Yamashita Tomohisa and Horikita Maki is the main cast
- High school life
- Friendship, loyalities, youth based
- Comedic, drama, romance are well blend
Don't forget to watch Shuji to Akira's PV entitled Seishun Amigo (Youth Friend), the two young actors are showing off their multiple talent!!
That's all for now. Saranghae~
Sunday, June 8, 2008
So enough with that. Before the dinner, me, my mom, sis and bro are told to go to the venue before dusk. But when was it?? Before dusk, they had like 6 a.m. to 6 p.m. Since I wasn’t clear about this (I’ve been told that labor work will be around that time and we had to spare the formal clothes for the dinner), I spent my free time watching Exploration of Human Body from episode 5 to 9. Ah-ha~
Out of sudden, the plan changed. At four p.m., we had to dress in formal and move our butt to the venue. So I go relax and find myself the formal dress I wanna wear, and just iron it. At that time, my mom was babbling about doing things at the last minute. What the heck? I wasn’t told about ANYTHING, and I said that I didn’t know. Than my mom told me I’m SLOW.
For my cult, slow is much likely to match stupid. I mean, real stupid like retard ones. Than, as a sign of protest. I just threw my formal dress and wore what I’m wearing at that time to the dinner. I don’t care what will people said. With messy make-ups on, and not-so-formal dressing, if they ask whose daughter am I, I just answer straight. I don’t care. Since I had not the rights to speak up, so I had to go with the actions. Black sheep, rebels, call me whatsoever.
FYI, I’m not stupid, or slow or what. When I had this psychology test, it’s resulted that I’m a carefree and naïve. When I was told to do this, I’ll follow. When I was told this is great, than I’ll said it’s great. Though I had my own principal, but I accept too many perceptions or opinions and sometimes just go okay with it.
This had made me gone to the sky for a while. Who am I exactly? I am the family’s black sheep, a rebel to them. But to other people, I am the naïve person. The person who goes stimulates the laugh for them. Sometimes, I am the hero for the younger people. I don’t really know who am I.
All I know is that, I’m able to make people happy. And I wanted people around me to make me happy too. So it’s kind of disappointing if someone you belong to, said things that you don’t really wanna hear since you’re building confidence from that person. Don’t give me non-sense of being overreaction or emotional. I am the most emotional person in my family and among my friends, but I never cross the line to said such things. Because I know it hurts.
So much for that. I cured it anyway, by developing this swooning over SuJu’s leader, Lee Teuk-oppa~ Ahh…I love his smile. Well, I am young and stupid I guess. Haha~
So much for something. Thanks for reading. The next day, sun will rise, and we had to move on.
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