Wednesday, November 25, 2009

[RANDOM] Is it only me or what?

SJ: If you're bored and you know you turn to right, yeeha!
Me: *yawns*

I refuse to talk about MAMA 2009 it'll invite stupid debates. But here is my stance:

It is not a suitable reference for KPop scene 2009 if we're going to look for it in the future.

Alright, so this is my blog post out of boredom. Bored. Yes, you've read me, bored.

Currently, after all the controversies and scandals where it gets the K-poppers all excited with negative energy, I felt like it gave out really tiring mind at the half end of the year. Seriously, whenever I scroll for latest K-Pop news, went to SJ-World, SFI, Soshified, Soompi and even to AllKPop, I was.....oh my god. Nothing interesting.

I wonder if its only me. . . I tried to update myself with latest songs, watching dramas (which I stopped halfway), read back all the interviews and transcripts of Sukira and watch Star King, try to get some laughing stock from Kpop macros, read fanfics. Ahh.. I don't know. I don't feel it. I don't find it appealing.

The reason why I wish I am a Korean gag lady instead of idols: 4:51-5:00
*credits: dirah9304@YT

I'm in need of something fresh. All the negative things that happened the half end of this year gets and bugs a lot on me. Something new would be nice to tell me:"Its still as colorful as the first time you inhaled KPop,".

Oh, as I was typing this, I read a news about KARA opening a bakery using their own loan money. Seems interesting and promising. I'd be looking forward for this!

I do think Minho could play Takashi Morinozuka really well and Key could play Tamaki Suoh. . . . He is tall, he is young, he is dark, he speak less, he is well-built. Hmm..... what do you think? ;D

And I'm looking forward for the treat of music festivals to end this miserable year. I hope KPop is still relevant in my blood, after all, I was just into it for a year.

Seriously, I think I need to get a new layout too ==;


p/s: I was thinking, maybe I'm just missing Kangin. . .

*Minho pic credits as tagged, Mori's pic taken from and SJ Kyochon scan was taken from

Thursday, November 19, 2009

I'm baaaccckkkk and guess what?

Hello Sayangzz, its been a while isn't it? I mean, both greetings you and posting, get it?

Ok, lame.

Anyway, peeps,


Well, pretty late isn't it to even said that? It's almost a week since I'm in my holiday mood. Sorry for not posting anything. The fact that I'm lost at what to post is another thing. Oh well, people. I'll try to give you more on what to ponder on the other side of a fangirl ^^ I learnt a lot at school and I think its really useful in the next moves on what I'm going to do to my blog. Maybe.....give aways? *wink*

Hmmm....guess what?

During the long period of hiatus (not that long, I know), I crashed on one feelings that I totally never expect it will come as for being a fangirl, especially to Sungmin, Super Junior and whole K-Entertainment things.


Yes siree, you read it right. Its getting on me when I was watching Super Junior's Adonis Camp, while listening to 2NE1, reading SHINee's fan account and singing 'Doushite'. All of a sudden, I was thinking:

2012, is it possible that I still love all of these?

It shocks me to questions myself like that. I mean, I just knew Super Junior for a year, that inclusive of getting to know K-Pop industry as well. But the span time of me with J-Rock is 3 years and I seldom check them out recently. I consider myself as a K-Pop convert now, even though I still enjoy J-Rock esp. visual kei.

Would I might be like that as well towards Super Junior?

I tried to shoo away those feelings. My subconscious mind tried to tell me that I will still love their magic, their uniqueness that I have long admire. But yes, I couldn't help to repeat to myself; I'm an easily bored person. Once the thing cause me to be bored, consuming my time too much on it, I'd be easily or heartlessly leave the scene. No kidding, I'm such a person.

Its scary and I guess all of the K-entertainment lovers out there that had been loving it more than 3 years must have passed this kind of feeling. It must be great to be such a loyal person.

Clicked on one of my first list of KPop fans friend blog, I was surprised to see that she is dealing with that kind of syndrome too. And she felt that it was wasteful as well, having to spazz all the time (you can't help just have to, I feel her) is really what she is tired of. I got agitated and exits myself.

I look around people who had been in the relationship with KPop for a long time, I thought, I might be the same with them. I mean, I've always believe I'll still smile to watch EHB again, to speak Full House's broken English and sings all their songs, maybe play some to the younger generations.

There is this time I dust off my LJ and I see, oh my...old comments on my fanfic. So I replied (it's dated back to 2009 January!! LOL) and lucky that all of them responded ^^; One of the user replied with LOL and she said she is NOT INTO KPOP ANYMORE.

This seriously was not helping at that time. I gasped a bit. I was thinking is this some kind of sign, I shall be leaving the scene soon? (I'm an NLP user, pardon me) I was afraid, this passion might fade someday, I wouldn't be achieving what I had expected on myself out of this scene. Again, I put aside those thoughts. I imagined it into some bubbles and let it pops in the air.

I got myself busy. Fan stuffs, working, school and such, I found myself forgotten that said feeling. School's over, phone's stolen, got back home and finally get myself to chat with P-Sshi after a long time.

Again, I had to cover my mouth in unbelievable expression. The one that had taught me and dragged me to K-Pop, P-Sshi, was no longer interested on Super Junior. I mean, in her list, Super Junior is #3 out of four. LOL! She is a huge S♥NE and Shawol now XD I have nothing against that, but it's just proven the is possible to get bored of Super Junior, if P-Sshi might be that, I might jump to the same boat some day.

Heads down low. Eyes shut tightly. Hands on my knees. Biting my lower lips. Imagining myself 5 years from now.

Am I still an E.L.F?

Do I still want to see Super Junior?

Would all the money and time I spent on them wasted?

Would I still be Miss Healerzz?

Am I.....leaving?

I can't shoo the feeling. Its not funny at all. And I was wondering if other fans are feeling the same. If you, who is reading this, had this kind of thoughts as well?

Until I was asked why do you love Super Junior on writings. I ponder the fresh feelings I had back when I'm denying or retreating myself from all K-Pop related things. I list them. I tried to recall what made me love Super Junior.

Why am I being ELF?

Why am I doing all these for them?

Why am I Miss Healerzz?

And until a year, why am I not leaving?

While writing all of these, with the nostalgic feelings I had within me. Pie bb plurked this video to me:-

credits minniemink@YT

I smiled.

Just when I thought of leaving.

SJ, you really know how to warm back my cold heart. You seriously made miracle happen, don't you?


p/s: Would I be an all time E.L.F? Well, that is something that YOU have to see by yourself ;)

Monday, November 9, 2009

Vote for SJ at MAMA 2009

Super Junior


I know, I got tons to read for tomorrow's paper but let me free some time to let you know this stratification in me that might be just up to be called as deviance at any time. Emile Durkheim just will not approve whatever I'm trying to say next but...its really important.

So, we all know that SJ will not be attending MAMA which formerly known as MKMF, well, all of the SM family are not going to attend though. But here is my somewhat logic reasoning why we should let Super Junior win.

1) 2009 is the year of their comeback, make it a winning year too. I know we make 2008 a winning year for DBSK! YEAY! *dances Mirotic*

2) Its something to celebrate after few down turn.

3) Foreign ELF always whine whine and complain about the disadvantages for being foreing. Now here is the chance to show the love that they had globally.

4) I wonder how many ELFs out there that could really help? Is it that much of bunches or just me being delusional?

5) Oh my god. Seriously, all of them worked really hard for their comeback and we are just sitting here signing up, voting for them each day. Is it that hard?

6) Exams? I got exams too honey. Just few minutes to sign up and vote. Its okay if you're not voting for few days but you will still vote. I'll tell you how, leave me your email address at the chatbox please ^^

7) Where is your words to keep the Sapphire Blue all over the world? Work it out sayangzz!

8) 13 boys, with general fans and their own singularly owned fans. How many was that? WHERE ARE YOU??

9) I want it so bad, why aren't you? LOL!

10) Please to be reminded that this is Foreign Category Award in MAMA. SOOOO.......How foreign are you? I mean, how many of foreign ELFs out there actually? Emh? Not that much eh? Huh. Talk big. Sapphire Blue sea what the heck. Pish.


12) I want to see all of them happy again like when they're receiving the award for MKMF 2007 :3

13) Why are you calling yourself E.L.F. peeps?

Enough talk. YOU HAVE TO HAVE SJ-WORLD ACCOUNT if you wanna know how to vote. This is to secure information ya? One of the strategy ^^

12 DAYS TO GO! Lets make it A MIRACLE; just like how Super Junior prove to the world!


p/s: Owh..I sounds wrong at the beginning. Blame Sociology for it.

*pics up there are not mine. Credits as tagged and

Thursday, November 5, 2009

These guys just PAWN!!!

I love comedies. Oh, yes I am. I love epic. I love to laugh, who didn't anyway?

I just have to make this short and simple, because I'm still laughing while I'm typing this (exaggerating is my MIDDLE name, thank you!). I just need you guys out there know that these guys I'm about to feature are just PLAIN AWESOME!

If you are following Sayanghaeyo real close, you'll get to see how ADDICTED I am to 8TV Nite Live. Yes, I am. I remember posting about the show earlier this year, you can read it here. At that time, HunnyMadu used to be the host and its moving on to Jules, to Jules with Mike and Jules,Mike an MOE! <---extra mark here, he is the baby in the emcees line :P


I mean, I had to rush home or get myself in front of the box (or likely something flat on the wall...I don't know) just to watch that particular show. WHY??

Two reasons for me.


2) Jules unnie for being cute (omg...I love her, she is just CUTE! XD), Mike for learning the viewers needs *cough*K-pop*cough* and Moe for....uh....being Moe? LOL! Don't get me wrong Moe, ailabeu~~*heart sign*

The emcess are just plain LOLz. I mean, I turned all geek when I tune in the show and had a good laugh watching them teasing each other. Wth... my sorority sisters was like...Norfy, they are not paying you, so don't laugh too much. I just give them one look and they'll just leave me in my world once again XD

Here are the samples of their dorkiness:-
(Mike and Moe)

*credits to roswellgirl@YT

Just not to confuse you all, Mike is on the right and Moe is on the left :P

Pshh.....ok, girls..... I know....I know... Yes, they are cute. Tune to 8TV Nite Live from Saturday to Monday; 12.45 AM to 2AM if you wanna see them live, k?

(Jules unnie and Mike)

*credits to roswellgirl@YT

YES! How cute Jules unnie is? XD XD I can't help but to tune to the show, its just a MUST for me every weekends. And was it too geek of me to say that I'm waiting for this show every week? LOLzz

You can stalk check their daily life out! Thats the coolest thing :D




And another guy that I just bumped on while randomly hitting on google ( I L.O.V.E. Google! I might just propose to it one day), I don't know if you guys had known him before since I found his vid on some kpop hating community <----why do they even existed??

Meet Mr. Chonny!
*credits to yourchonny or mychonny@YT

ROFL!! Ok, not the best parody every, but you guys just HAD to go through his other vidz where he is babbling all the way. My personal favorite would be the one with him doing tutorial on how to be G-Dragon!

Oh yeah, pardon me for spreading something...what? Influencing minors to cuss. Its hilarious and I just had this urge to share XD

I just had to say, how do I live without all these awesome, hilarious people in the world? Babe...wasn't that world kinda dull?

Oh, dear. I might be signing myself to nearest stand up comedy club in town!


p/s: In other random side, I'm spazzing on Michael Jackson's This Is It as it told the whole truth of my affair with Super Junior *0* omg...goosebumps (in a good way, of course).

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

About H.A.T.E

I'm taking some time to update this almost-dead blog. And hey! I just rejuvenated my LJ though I don't still get to see the chemistry between us yet. Blogspot is still the best for me ;D

So as you think I'm being idle while hiatus-ing, I'm still here, behind the screen to monitor what happen around the world (I'm a communication student for god sake! Online is just a MUST!), so beware sayangzz, I'm watching!

Of course, this blog is dedicated to fangirling and I'm talking about fangirling at this moment.

Ok, so heres the treat. I remember plurking and Maskuto posted a video that he said was non-sense and when I watch it, I am certain it would likely to sparks fire between Shawol (SHINee World) and Hottest. I gave away my two cents since the uploader has not state any proof and the proof that she sent up after that was all the way unrelated to her point either. I wasn't trying to pick a fight or so, I was trying to give her a bit sense and hopefully she will remove that video. I do not wish for fandoms to hate and fight with each other!

This is what I get from her:-

She posted three comments and the other two was similar but when I checked the video's comment, it was deleted. THAT one comment up there was the one that I'm so much in rage of! Known as a hot headed person, I went to his account and would like to ask things or two about this (I'm a patriotic person, I don't deny it) but she blocked me.

Right after that, she sent me this:-

Yes, that was one month ago when she posted that up. Since I couldn't reply to her at her account, I did at my own, just in case she might came back to check me out. Well, I'm certainly right when she apparently came back and topped my comment page there! LMAO!

I don't get why she is getting so personal with me and the others who are trying to say DO NOT SHOW THIS VIDEO. From what me and some other users that she also personally attacked understood (with VERY low comprehend-able English she got there, so sorry!), the vid is trying to show that a fan (apparently, she alleged the fan to be a shawol) is the one who should bear the responsible for surfacing the controversial comment from Jaebum's MySpace.

The fan had apologized and felt bad about it, so I don't see the point to turn the anger to that fan. I mean, of course I'm upset of what she did, but she had apologized. Wasn't that the same thing happened to Jay? I wouldn't turn the circle round and around its just useless. The video is provoking Hottests to turn the hate to Shawol (the uploader kept saying that shawol is jealous of 2PM and made the controversial comment public).

When I thought everything was okay and she already removed the video (too many angry comment towards the uploader) she came back to push a fight with me. I was all the way LOLOLOLOLOL!!! She kept checking me up ain't her?? XD Such a fan of mine~ thank you!

THIS. My sayangzz, is not what a TRUE fangirl supposed to do. Not saying I'm all that but a fangirl with a BRAIN wouldn't go all emotional and left the relevance out in her action. Especially when you are presenting yourself as a fan of a specific star. The uploader is a KimBum of BOF fan, so I was.....wth....whenever I see KimBum. Pitied him for having such a non-sense fan~ Oh well, I'm not that immature for labeling or such, but I do felt funny when I bumped to any KimBum related news or such. LOLz!

So think twice when you think the wrath is taking over yourself, watch the act you're going to take. Do peace, not war!

Talking about what a fangirl shouldn't do, I was randomly hitting words on google and I went to this blog that was a total HIT back when I'm still a mod at MY-SMTown.

Yep, a self-proclaimed international anti of Super Junior blog. Its called Stupid Junior and had a YouTube account also. Feel free to visit the blog and the youtube channel, just don't leave a comment. Do not give a damn no matter how insulting the user might try to be. Oh, do I have to mention another BAD ENGRISH again? I'm telling you people, come there to have a good laugh is fine. But to waste your energy and time, posting lengthy comment on such blog, PLEASE.

Why its not worth to do so at such blog? Because:

1) That is what the user wanted! Attention! And when he/she got famous for doing so, being a hater is such a WIN for the user.

2) The 'hate' or 'anti' method he/she used there are so cheap. CHEAP that I couldn't stand to laugh at it!! I mean, subbing videos with so-so English, manipulating pictures to make the boys looked hideous, writing random comments, oh-my-god. . . . . .That is just a total turn off, I don't even the feel the rage to fight over. He/she is just so pitiful, like seriously. . . . *Loser hand sign*

I can't imagine her/him spending ample time to maintain both blog and youtube account, she/he really knows how to enjoy life eh? *pitiful eyes*

However, when I said I've ignored the blog and youtube channel for more than 6 months, it seems that the user is still going on. Why? Well, take a look at how many 'supporters' he/she got there.
See how hard for Sayanghaeyo (where it supposed to spread love....No?) to get a single comment but the so called anti got so many attention in just mere words and manipulated picture? How ironic eh? How can the anti not be happy? Her purpose became true, dear all.

From all the comments I read there, all of them came from FANS. None of them are saying: "Oh, I support you, lets hate SJ together". So yeah, from fans the user had the strength to move on for another hate, because he/she know, FANS are reading and responding. See?

This is what I learnt from Michael Jackson, the most controversial mega-superstar of all time, Rest In Peace. Being said this and that, alleged and hated, he still standing strong an he used to say:
Ignorance is hostility.

Which is very much true. So be deaf and mute about the hates that turn up to you. Ignore so they know their cause and purpose are not going to work and that nobody cares about it. Well, of course you had your own free will and choice. All I'm trying to do is for you to have a bit sense about this. Make your stars proud of you, not ashamed of you ;D

And that is all for my latest entry. Whoosh! Going back to hit my past year papers!


p/s: Not that I'm trying to beg you guys, COMMENT, COMMENT, COMMET in my blog though I wish I could interact more with my readers, but that is not my point. LOL! Don't twist my words for this, will ya?

p/s/s: I edited out some words, apparently some typos and uncleaned lines made me looks like another ENGRISH blogger!! LMAO! What a noob~